Any early experiences that, in retrospect, hint at your kinks?
The most noteable ones:
Medical Play – There were hints at my medical kinks from a very young age. I’ve been exploring that a lot more as of late and though I think it ties more with ASMR than BDSM, there seems to be a strong link between those two. That’s something that I want to study and possibly share on my blog at some point. Study, though, not be the study!
Wax Play– In my Girl Guide first aid training, I remember having to drip white melted paraffin wax onto our hand and colour it in with a red felt-tip to make it look like a blister, which we would then have to ‘clean’ with a sterile wipe, dry and apply a sticking plaster. I remember liking how the hot wax felt; like getting into a bath that was just slightly too warm. After practice I was left unattended with a lighter and a dinner candle. Suffice to say I got a little bit too carried away…
Blindfolds – When I was young I used to sleep with my pillow over my eyes because I “preffered it that way”. I hated my room being dark, but liked covering my eyes.
Interrogation Scenes – I used to rewind and rewatch the kidnap and interrogation of Heen Tasker in True Lies. Often.
Gloves/Hands – I used to catch myself noticing a man’s hands and wondering why I had inappropriate thoughts about them. I also used to love taking extra care when putting on gloves (latex, driving), though again this seems to relate more to ASMR.
Honorifics – I really liked having to calling my maths teacher “Sir” and I wasn’t quite suire why.
Stress Positions/Masochism – I used to put myself in stress positions because the burn “felt good”.
Primal Play – I was a boisterous child, I loved playfighting with my brother and got upset when I couldn’t rough and tumble (apparently) with the other boys once I started dating. I also used to growl to express my displeasure in my teens. I wouldn’t swear at people, I’d just growl instead. I wasn’t even aware it was an issue until Matt rebuked me once for growling at him. I realised then that it was quite a primal thing to do! .